Time to Kill or Time to Decide?

Sometimes I just can't understand myself. There are so many things that have to be resolved probably by the next week but I just can't stop myself from wasting lots of time Orkutting and Blogging. Ok, I can control the latter but seriously, Orkut has become something too much for my time. That also says that I don't have a strong will but then I don't feel like doing things even when they are absolutely necessary.

First, there is this app thing that needs to be decided. The univs are holding half of the results and that makes it even more difficult. A univ of Stan's calibre has given me an admit but no aid. The amount is exorbitant by any standards and I m pushed to seek options. Ppl say try proffing, take a loan and many other things making me more and more confused. There are some options like going to Europe as the tuition is much cheaper with nearly the same facilities being offered.

Then there is this job of mine which is making me go bonkers. I mean there is literally not much that I need to do. And whatever is there, is not worth making efforts (that's just my opinion). So what do I plan? I plan to change my job. What next? Well, I have an interview in 3 days time. So got to prepare for that u know.

Then there are some personal things like the place and ppl I have met in the past few months. Jasmeet took a brave decision and is leaving for India this month. I m happy for him but that makes me anxious and to a certain extent, jealous. I find myself asking why? and really there are so many whys that I can't really answer all of them. But some of them have to be answered, that too probably in the next few days.

I feel I need to improve (possibly develop) my decision-making power, specifically, for these kinda situations. Anyway, I m not at all disappointed or depressed with life and may be happy that I have so many things to consider and so many options open.

Enough Rant. Rest some other day.